The sun gives me writers block

I do hope you're all having a delicious summer break! Unfortunately, I've been so busy these past few months with exams, charity work, holidays and projects that I haven't had time to do much.. well.. any writing at all.

However, all is not lost. I should be back to routine as soon as things start to calm down. It' results day next week and then I'm off to reading festival so i'm praying for excellent results to make the weekend worth the party.

I'd like to take this moment to say congratulations to everyone who got into their desired unis and/or got the grades they wanted at AS or A-level. I'm sure you all worked mega hard, you deserve them! As for me, I still have the wait, though i'm racking my brains wondering what I got. Fingers crossed for those A*s!

Until then.

Bon Voyage!

Hey guys, as I speak i'm in a car on my way to the airport. Why? I'm going to new york for five days!! I'm so excited with all my gcses over I can start my summer with a bang. I won't be posting anywhere for a while unless I get wifi. When I get back I should be doing a blogspot on my time in the big apple but for now just hold on, I'll be back soon!

Thank you!

Hey guyss thank you for all your birthday tweets, Facebook messages, instagrams, texts and tumblr inboxes. I really appreciate it and I've had an amazing birthday thanks to the people I spent it with including Camille, Michael, Matheus and Dougie!

Looking back on my time in high school..

If I give any piece of advice to my followers on tumblr/twitter/blogspot it is to live in the moment.

You hear it a billion times from dozens of people but it's so damn true. Tell that guy you like him. Ask that girl to a romantic date. Stand up to that bully. Buy that top you've been wanting for weeks. FUCKING KISS HIM! If I regret anything from my hormonal teens thus far, it would be not taking the chances I should've done. There will always be "what If"s, so the one thing I have to say to you is to true to reduce the amount of them you have. Once you break down the walls you put up between yourself and going for what you want, you're so much happier.

We all have dreams. If you really want to go for them, be ruthless and spontaneous. The rest will follow.

We taught the world new days to dream...

Today I'm going to waffle on about a song I love. By a singer I adore. Covered by an actor whom I am not worth of saying his name... Chris Colfer.

I can't simply put that I love this song. I adore this song. It is the definition of perfection. Ryan Murphy is an absolute genius for recognise Chris Colfer's talent and potential and giving him this song for him to grace us with.

What I love the most is the meaning behind the song. Usually, in life, people live by "don't look back, always look to the future" but what's wrong with some nostalgia? This song is about taking something so sentimental or going back to something so close to you and returning to that, and feelings as if.. well "We never said goodbye". But the song also portrays a certain theme of taking something already amazing and making it phenominal. And I think that's what Colfer did with the song. The emotion he puts behind every word, every note just connects with the heart.

I'll post the lyrics below so you can get a full understanding of them and hopefully love them as much as I do.

Good luck to everybody who has exams coming up! Whilst I'll be indulged in my own I'll try to get a post on here.

I dont know why I'm frightened
I know my way around here
The cardboard trees, the painted seas, the sound here
Yes, a world to rediscover,
But I'm not in any hurry,
And I need a moment.

The whispered conversations
In overcrowded hallways.
The atmosphere as thrilling here as always.
Feel the early morning madness,
Feel the magic in the making,
Why, everythings as if we never said goodbye.

I've spent so many mornings
Just trying to resist you.
I'm trembling now, you cant know how I've missed you.
Missed the fairy tale adventures
In this ever spinning playground.
We were young together.

I'm coming out of makeup,
The lights already burning.
Not long until the cameras will start turning.
And the early morning madness,
And the magic in the making,
Yes, everythings as if we never said goodbye.

I dont want to be alone,
That's all in the past.
This world's waited long enough,
I've come home at last.

And this time will be bigger
And brighter than we knew it.
So watch me fly, we all know I can do it.
Could I stop my hand from shaking,
Has there ever been a moment
With so much to live for?

The whispered conversations
In overcrowded hallways.
So much to say, not just today, but always.
We'll have early morning madness,
We'll have magic in the making,
Yes, everythings as if we never said goodbye.

We taught the world new ways to dream.

Schools in my area are trying to fuck me over.

So I have a week and a half to decide where I'm going to spend the next two years of my academic life and it seems like I'm getting mixed signals from all around.

My Current School: STAY WITH US. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE. WE'LL GIVE YOU MONEY. WE'LL GIVE YOU SCHOLARSHIPS, WE'LL OFFER THINGS WE'VE NEVER OFFERED BEFORE!

Catholic School 1: Join us. We'll offer you so much more than you could get at your current school. If you join us we will give you freedom, new friends and an amazing catholic education!

Catholic School 2: We'd like you to come, but you don't have to. I mean like, we're not going to chase you for a place.. We'd just think it'd be cool if you came.. Just sayin'.

Grammar School: You're too dumb.

Private School: You're too dumb.

State School: CONGRATULATIONS YOU GOT IN! OMG WE'RE SO EXCITED FOR YOU! But we're not that keen. We're just pleased. And we're going to send you all this paper work with no deadline because we assume you'll join us anyway without consideration. Love us?

College: We're not offering you a place.. but we'd reaallllyy like to have you. It's just because we're so popular... I hope you understand.. but just wait another 4 months and we MIIGHT have a place for you.. probably not.. but maybe.. but, we doubt it.. sorry. But don't get your hopes down, we'll keep writing to you.. we love you.. maybe.. we're not too sure ourselves...

So I've had an epiphany:

After recent events I was getting sympathy and advice from one of my best friends, and he told me to look at the situation as a positive and to think of all the negatives about it, and turn them into positives.

With this in mind, I plan to do so, by writing down a positive as a list on my phone and separately on tumblr. In a month's time, I plan to publish all my positives on here to remind myself and all of you that some lessons in life, you just have to bare. But that doesn't mean you can't have fun with them.